Saye di tag pule~

•20/10/2009 • 3 Comments

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Assalamualaikum and good day readers.

This entry will be a bit fun. haha. Cuz it has nothing to do with any issues at all. I’ve been tagged by my dearest youngest sister (the one in red hijab, the one in purple is my sister too). So this entry is just for fun and to kill the time aje.

Sile enjoy. haha :p

1. Go to ur cell phone and look at your received calls list the first ten names if the name is repeated go to the next and list them below ;

1. si tunang2
2. bonda ku
3. Faiz Mansor (tny cmne GSTT tu sbnanye)
4. ayah
5. Schlap
6. Aza
7. Kak Lis
8. Ijat
9. Kak Siti Zaiton
10. Amalina


2. Is number 4 your best friend?
Iye. asek gado je koje. :p

3. Are you related to number 2?
she’s  my biological mother

4. Do number 5 and 8 make a good couple?

eeuuwww that is sooo gay! hahah

5. How old is 10’s middle name..
tade. ade Amalina binti (bapak die)

6. Where did you meet 7?

a fellow colleague at school

7. Say something nice about number 1..
my everything. cukup utk describe anda? saye tau tidak. hehe. ok la tu, covers ‘everything’ wattt~ :p


8. Could you ever live with 3?
tidak! he’s happily married with a son.

9. Do 6 and 9 make a good couple?

duh~~~~

10. Have you ever dated 8?

tidakkk~~!!!

11. Would you ever date 5?

tidak sekali-kali! hahah

13. Is 1 shy?
kekadang ye, kekadang tak. hehehe

14. Do you go to school with 2?
Yup!! die chegi saye juge mase skola rendah. so tiap2 hari selama 6 tahun kami akan g skola sesame tetiap ari. ehe

15. Would you do anything for 10?
sekadar yg termampu. =]

16. Do you know a secret about 4?
secret ek..ntah. my dad is very secretive.


17. Do you trust 7 with anything?
not anything of course. huhu

18. Who is the best looking?

no.2 dan no. 4. sbb mak+ayah=saye! hahaha.


19. Who is the loudest?
ye, ayahanda saye.

20. Who do you talk to the most?
si tunang2 saye! hehe

Sape plak nk kene tag ni??

kalo nk buat, buat le.

kalo tak, sukatii~~~

:p

Truly,

Nadiah Ibrahim.

Another Bridge to Cross…

•19/10/2009 • 6 Comments

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Assalamualaikum and good day my beautiful peeps! :D

Syawal finally ends. After a month of raya-ing and having open house-s throughout the week, I still don’t feel like puas makan rendang. huhu :p

Another bridge to cross ey? Honestly, to me, there are several ‘bridges’ in my life. Bridges that change the way of life, change the path, but not changing the aim or main purpose of living as a khalifah in this very Earth.

What bridges have I crossed? How many? Where did they lead me to?

The answer is simple.

It’s who I am today. :)

I was born on September 21st, 1985. At 5 years old, my parents sent me to Tadika Kemas. Confused you not my friend, kindergarten is not the first place where education starts. Education starts at home. Some say since we are in the womb. As babies, growing toddlers, kids are like a pure white canvas. It’s the duty that falls on the painter on how to draw, how to paint, what colours to be used, etc. The painter here refers to the parents. If the parents don’t take the effort to show what good morale behaviours are, they can’t put the responsibility totally on education institution. (that’s a different issue. will write abt it some other time)

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photo courtesy : www.flickr.com/photos/nadnad_nadiah

Okay, I went to kindergarten. One experience that I couldn’t forget is, my teacher was pregnant. She was very tired and couldn’t teach us ABC. Then, it was me who taught my friends there about ABC. (am I born a teacher? hahah) My parents were teachers, so before they sent me to the kindergarten, they equipped me with basic2 stuff like ABC, 1,2,3, simple2 nursery rhymes, etc.

Done with kindergarten, I went to primary school, the same school where my mother was teaching at that time. She was very3 fierce and strict. Taught my class Mathematics, I couldn’t answer her question. As a ‘reward’, I was canned using the long yellow/brown ruler, and it broke into two! Hamik kau. Ganas tak? But I didn’t feel too much pain cuz I wore jeans inside the kain. Dono why. I couldn’t remember. hahah. As we were in the car heading for home, I cried my heart out, kept saying to my mum, “Mak tak sayang Diah!! Mak pukul Diah dpn kawan2, malu tau!!”. (n there I talked about being embarrassed, not about the pain. thanks to the jeans! hahah :p) Excuse me my friends, I was born an idiot when comes to culculation. lol~ As I was growing up, I finally understand the reason. It falls under ‘education’. It’s how you educate your child. Before you do anything, you must know your child. Which type of learner are they? Which strategies motivate them successfully? Is it positive reward? Or could it be negative reward, which is punishment? (pesanan penaja : know your child for successful education path :p)

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My mother during her last day serving as a teacher/Headmistress in a primary school in Jasin.

photo courtesy : www.flickr.com/photos/nadnad_nadiah

Then, I went to a kampung school very near to my house. A small school, categorized in rural area school (skola luar bandar) but was a very successful school. I still remember when I was in Form 5, our school won the ‘Sekolah Harapan Negara kategori sekolah menengah luar bandar’. It was soooo cool! And I remembered clearly, I wasn’t the most genius person in school, but I managed to get into the Q List (quality list) where 10 names with highest achievement would be displayed on the main notice board. (kembang sat.haha) And I managed to beat the most genius person at school. But only in one subject je lah, which is English. But hey, nobody could beat her, so dpt kalahkn satu subject pun cukup lah! hahah =p oh almost forgot to tell ya, I took pure science at school. I love Biology alot!

Having Biology as my favourite subject, I wanted to be a veterinarian. That was my aim. After the SPM, I got a few offers, but I decided to go to matriculation college in Melaka. (where my arwah abg studied for a few months before he went to UTM). I took Sains Hayat and met a few friends there. I got two best friends there. All three of us were in the same class. They are Fadilla n Amy. Dila now in UPSI. I think she already graduated. Amy now in Indo, finishing her medical course.

This is the part where I made a choice. After two months in KMM (Kolej Matrikulasi Melaka), I received an offer letter to attend an interview with BPG (Bahagian Pendidikan Guru) for TESL programme (Teaching English as a Second Language). I went to the interview. And few weeks after, I got a phonecall saying that I was selected. My dad wanted me to leave KMM and pursue TESL instead. I told him that, being a Vet was my childhood dream. I insisted to stay. But being a daughter, I finally agreed. He probably knew better since he is a father and a teacher.  So,I  left KMM  with a heavy heart and I went to Institut Perguruan Ilmu Khas (IPIK) in Bandar Tun Razak. The programme is a 6 years twinning prog between IPIK and local university, which is University of Malaya. It’s a hell long and winding journey for me as it taught me many things. All 75 of us, we watch each other grew up, from an innocent girl/boy to now a mother of cute lil’ babies. :D Who knows one of us might be the Minister of Education, kan kan? :D

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memorable days in IPIK

In IPIK, during my 4th year, I was not well, and it brought me to make a BIG decision. I decided to undergo a minor surgery. If I didn’t, it might affect the studies. Oh well, it already did, during the final semester in IPIK. And I sucked BIG time when I got the result.

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The 5th year, we went to University of Malaya to finish our final 2 years there. Such great and memorable memories and experience we got from each other and from the lecturers. Here, I started having interest in photography and as well as modeling. I bought a DSLR using scholarship money (plssss jgn contohi daku! hahah) and I took part in Pencarian Cover Girl Dara.com 2007/2008. Managed to be one of the finalists, and managed to get the title ‘Miss Favourite’. Since then, the ‘bridge’ I crossed brought me to my better half. =]

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The cover for February 2008


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With Kak Aida, one of the journalist of Dara.com magazine after the final event.


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During the final event, all the finalists must perform in Talent Show segment, which I choose to play the guitar, since it’s the only thing that I know. huhu


How it happened?

Since the final event ended, I did some modeling to kill the time, did it on part time basis. A renowned Malaysian photographer, Adhadi Mohd contacted me saying that he was interested to have me as his model in his basic photography class in Putrajaya. So I went and do my stuff there and the students were snapping the photos. After the class ended, we exchanged phone nums and contacted each other through email cuz I want the photos that he took. hehe. Apart from being a model and allow people to take my photos, I myself love to take photos too. But not as good as the pros lah, dh nama pn amature. hehe. So we went out for several outings with our other photographer friends, and later, the Cupid did his job. You know what happen lah. hehe

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Another bridge that I am currently crossing will bring me to another big step, a new life. Not totally a new life la, it’s more to another phase of life. The life where two souls be as one, where togetherness is  very crucial, to stand together, give and take, more responsibilities to be hold, things to leave behind, and etc. Thinking about it, being a spouse is not easy. And soon being a parent. Lagi lah~ But here I am, proudly crossing the bridge with courage, faith, alongside with hopes, prayers from family members and friends, and with visions. I am ready to leave my single life behind to go to a better place : “melengkapi tulang rusuk si adam dan berada di sisinya untuk dikasihi dan dididik dunia dan akhirat.” :) I am done with berembun, balik pagi, berhuha-huha with friends, doing crazy stuff (like berkarok from 11-4a.m. hahaha) My time has passed. :) I’ve enjoyed it. And now is the time for me to move on to another place. This time will berhuha-huha with (bakal) asben tersayang. hehe.

But again, moving to a new chapter of life doesn’t change everything. I’m not planning to leave everything behind. It’s just I have a greater responsibility to carry out. I am still the same old cute lil’ blowpish (quoting from RJ :p) Nadiah that you know. :) My love to everyone especially my family is the same. Don’t forget that yeah. I might me a bit distant in the future, but let’s not make distance as an issue. We have the technologies, so no need to worry yeah. :)

Hurm…wondering what more ‘bridges’ to be crossed in the future, and where will they bring me to..

If this entry is a thing for you to ponder, look back to your life, and look to the future. :) If I insisted to be a vet, and didn’t go for TESL prog, would I have a chance to be who I am today and meet my better half? I wish you readers can see those bridges in your life and where they lead you. :)

Truly,

Nadiah Ibrahim.

As the Silence Whistles…

•13/10/2009 • 4 Comments

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Assalamualaikum and good day readers…

Today’s entry will be abit emotional and maybe with a bit of sarcasm.

The topic : CHANGE

In certain parts of everyone’s lives, we will face changes. Lots of changes. Whether you like it or not, life is going to change. We cannot live in our comfort zone forever. Have the courage to face the changes. The sky is not always blue. To my family and friends out there, if you are facing any changes, regardless your life, your families’s life, your love life, your career, or even changes in anything at all, embrace it, face it, dont avoid it.

Stagnant life without changes is like a plain lake, it doesn’t have current. Someday it might dry. Unlike the river, the current flows, giving life to many things around it. A river might branch out to be anothe small river.


A change for the betterment of one’s life.

Who doesn’t want to be a better person?

Who wants to stay forever in their comfort zone is a LOSER.

Yes, a LOSER. You don’t get anything but your so-called-comfort zone.

Nothing is going to stay the same forever.

CHANGES.

Just suck it up!


Nadiah Ibrahim.

3-in-1. a.k.a three-in-one. ehe~

•11/10/2009 • 7 Comments

Assalamualaikum n good day readers!

I hope it’s not too late to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. :D

Lotsa things happen after Ramadhan left. I’ll just go straight to the point la eh. Excited ni. hehehe

Back to the title of the post.

3 in 1.

jadahnye tuh?

shampoo ker?

oh tidak.

Raye+besday+engagement.

Best!

It’s the best birthday present ever~!
But takziah to my beau’s family, opah nye dipanggil Ilahi on the 5th day of Raya..al-Fatihah….

Okeh, sambung2~~ hehehe

2 days before raya, we went out to buy a few things for our engagement. Believe me, I didn’t prepare that much for my raya. I spent money and time to prepare for my engagement. Thn ni x sempat tlg my sis n mum buat kuih. kan ti kan? huh..baju raye pn ade sepasang jek. tudung raye…kasut raye juge…nak2 this year is the first year to give all the anak2 ikan bilis duit raya. Not forgetting to my sisters and parents. Org baru keja ni,  eventho it was not much, tp merase a jgk ek, asal ada. huhu.

I’d like to thank all my family members who helped me on that day, and also friends who came for beraya and attending my engagement ceremony. I really2 appreciate it.

Saya sayang kamuuu semuaa~~

Enjoy the gmbar.

*credits to bakal adek ipar ku dan si tunang2 ku sbb amik gmbar. huhu*

Truly,

Nadiah Ibrahim.

UPSR fever

•08/09/2009 • 11 Comments

Assalamualaikum and good day my beautiful peeps! :D

Today is the first day of UPSR. Currently I’m with students of 5 Wawasan. Out of 28 students, only 9 of them turned up to school today. Yelah, if I were them pn malas nk g skola. Cuz they are not having their P&P at all pun. Many teachers are out to invigilate UPSR at other schools. So I just brought them to the library and get them something to read.

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DSC00385(oh yeah, that’s my lappy and my handbag. menyibuk kejap :p)

Nak dijadikan cerite, (in BM lah pulak :p) ade satu hari ni, aku masuk klas darjah 3 utk sbjek Math. Ade sorg budak laki ni ckp kt aku, ” cikgu, perut cikgu cantik lah”. i was like, wutta…darjah 3?? then br aku come to my senses, bdk ni nk ckp aku slim, tp die x dpt cari pkataan yg betul. hahaha. Lawak giler.

Ok, now I want to share with you a video, my favourite song.

Enjoy~

:D

Truly,

Nadiah Ibrahim.

Ramadhan evokes memories…

•26/08/2009 • 8 Comments

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Assalamualaikum and good day readers.

Today is the fifth day of Ramadhan. Having iftar and sahur with beloved family is the most precious and priceless moment in our lives. Not to forget the excitement of ‘rampaging’ through the sea of human at Bazar Ramadhan, perplexed by the diverseness of food, the delectable aroma of ayam percik, murtabak, roti bom, sup tulang, mi rebus…variety colours of drinks…cendol la, ABC la, cincau, soya, lemonade, laicikang, teh bunga (my fevourite :p)…aaa.. *drooling* Can’t help with the desire to buy anything that the eyes lied on…dugaan..dugaan..pose sebulan Nad…hahaha…

Apart from those excitements (which I will leave it in a few days to come to go back to Johor), one thing worries me.

Bile laaaaaa rumah nk siappp~~~~ aaaaa~~~ alkisah, lps mak aku pencen, die decide nk renovate rumah. Lameeee dah die berangan nk besakn rumah. Ok, lps pencen ade rejeki nk besakn rumah, the construction started on June (eh ke July, aku x ingt :p). It should be completed b4 puasa, tp tah nape x siap2 lg…so every iftar n sahur dlm keadaan yg…err…can be said as atas meja jepun je. huhu. tu pn nsb baik ade meja jepun. tapi kene berperang dgn habuk2 jugak lah kan. habuknye masyaAllahhhh~~~~ Allah je yg tau. habis kulit muke merah2. huhu..apo blh buek…it’s 90% complete now. Skang mak aku tgh pening mane nk cari perabot baru n langsir. Syiaaaannnnn die, pening2 ni. huhu…hopfuli blh siap b4 raya.

Bdk2 Indo yg keje buat rumah ni pn ckp mebi dorg x blk raya. ade yg dah beli tiket. kesiann, x dpt tgk anak bini time raya. dorg ni bagus, buat keje bagus, hormat kite, rajin borak2, time puasa ni dorg puasa jgk tau, x mcm ade pkeje melayu buat piping n longkang kt cni, x puase. mokok, air bagai sume siap. bdk2 Indo ni buat keje lg berat dr dorg, tp puase jugak. itula org melayu kite…sedih…dtg kerja lmbt, blk awal, mane x lmbt siapnye. bdk2 indo ni pagi2 pkul 8 lg dah terpacak. pkul 5 br blk. mlm dtg lg buat overtime sbb nk siapkn cpt. hm…

Apart form that jugak, Ramadhan that comes and go every year, elicits memories of years ago…the loss of my sister and brother…not to type it all out again this year, you can just go and click here and here if you keen to read about it.

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Dugaan bulan Ramadhan ni banyak…harap2 kite semue dpt go through every hiccups and be a better person…I’m reminding this to myself and also to my friends who are reading this.

Hayatilah vid ni.

Selamat Berpuasa y’all!

:D

Truly,

Nadiah Ibrahim.

One of the things that kills our education system…(reading habit to be specific)

•24/08/2009 • 17 Comments

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Assalamualaikum and good day readers. *background music : Sleeping Sun by Nightwish*

It has been quite a long time since my last post. Now only I got the mood to write. hehe.

Okay. My updates.

  • currently I’m in a school in Kulai. I’m not ready to reveal the name of my school. hahahah
  • It has been 3 weeks there (not including this 1 week school holiday)
  • has been appointed as guru Sistem Maklumat Murid. ( mind u, my school has 1850 pupils for both morning and afternoon session)
  • currently I’m taking over jadual waktu cikgu yg bersalin. so I haven’t unleashed my teaching 100% because I don’t want to interrupt other teachers’ plan or strategies. I have mine. So, I’ll practice it next year when I get my own schedule. :D

Okay, back to the main topic.

Before my writing goes very far, I’d like to highlight here, that this is just my personal opinion. I’m not saying anything is wrong or correct. This is just my humble opinion as a new teacher who had been trained to teach for 6 years, who knows soooo little about education system. Again, my opinions are vulnerable, you can either accept it or just ignore of you don’t agree.

Alrite. First is about our reading culture. Reading habit. Every now and then the government has put emphasize on reading habit among Malaysian. If I’m not mistaken, according to a research done, we Malaysians have the least books read per annum. What are the roots of this problem? The government even says that the tax will be deducted if the receipt of reading materials worth RM300 above is included in the tax form. That is still not enough to encourage Malaysians to read more.

I’ve been in the school for just 3 weeks. But I can see one of the things that kills and prevents reading habit to be cultivated among young Malaysians, which are the school students.

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Ok, here is the situation.

The school has a ‘Pusat Sumber Terbaik Peringkat Daerah’. So u can imagine lah how the inside of the library. The books and the shelves are very neatly placed at their position. Not a single dust or spiderweb exists. Little librarians are very hardworking during recess time to clean the library, rearrange the books, sweep the floor, put back any board games on the rack, etc. The Pusat Sumber has a teacher in charged. So, she has to do everything regarding data entry, books coding, bla3. So, when the library is selected to be the best in that district, she has to set certain rules to maintain the neatness of the library. I totally understand of the rules that say we can’t eat in the library, can’t run, must put all the books back on the shelves, bla3. But what I can’t tolerate is, the teacher is being tooooooo fierce to students who step in the library. Whining all around. Bising2 marah2 bdk2 yg bising. It’s normal lah for kids to be nakal and noisy. Before we graduated, we studied Child Psychology, right? Use it lah, don’t just simply shout and whine sesuka hati. There are appropriate approaches to deal with this kind of situation, bukan whine and shout for that matter.  Ade sape2 suke anyone membebel? tak kan, same goes to the kids. Even some teachers who bring their classes to the library are being treated very cold by the library teacher. Because of that very cold treatment, some of us decide not to bring the students to the library at all. Can you see what is happening and why I say to some degree, the school where all formal education begins is the place where reading habit is killed??

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I give you another situation.

Reading habit is not just for young kids. Other teachers also read. I don’t know why there must be a gap between senior teachers and new teachers. If it’s because of experience, it’s not a valid and reasonable reason lah there must be a gap because of experience. ok, nnt kite masuk bab keikhlasan hati nk mendidik pulak. let’s finish this reading habit topic first. There was this one day, a fellow teacher, she is quite new, has been teaching in the school for one year. She wanted to borrow a book regarding PTK exam. But the library teacher didn’t allow her. My friend thought the book could not be brought out of the library. But she was wrong. The reason why the library teacher didn’t give her was because she wanted to give the book to this one particular senior teacher.

Another silly incident.

Being the youngest and newest staff, I have to bear everything a new staff has to. I smiled to everyone, greet everyone, says that I’m new and looking for guidance. Eventhough hati baik, mulut manis, I don’t get the same in return. I remember my mom’s advice (she was a former headmistress) “pegi mane2, hati mesti baik, mulut kene manis”. I guess it’s not working at my place. Being a sekolah kawalan, I guess some of the teachers are kerek, sombong. haha. But I’m not saying all of them are like that, but some are. OK, I went to the library to look for literature materials for my students. I didn’t know where the literature books are, so I asked her. Guess what, without looking at my face, and with a very cold deep tone, she just pointed to the shelves. I went to the shelves, and from there she giggled and laughed with other teachers and the little librarians. I was like…okay, your attitude and your so-called pusat sumber terbaik is not going to kill my spirit to educate my kids and get them to read. I can find other better materials lah, not only from the library aje. Geram tau. Inilah sikap org2 yg x ikhlas. ish2.

My comment of all the situations listed : it’s NONSENSE.

This should not be happening. Being a teacher, we must be creative to find our materials. We can’t only depend on things that are in front of our eyes. Be creative, find other reliable sources. It’s okay if we have to sacrifece our money a bit. The money we get here in the world is nothing compared to the rewards that Allah will give us.

I guess that is all for today. Nak lepas rasa x puas ati pn ade. tapi ape blh buat. I’m new, and I don’t have the voice.

Truly,

Nadiah Ibrahim,

a new 6-years-trained teacher.

Time to serve the nation…

•16/07/2009 • 9 Comments

Assalamualaikum and good day readers. :)

Right now I feel like pouring everything on the keyboard, but at the same time I don’t feel like writing anything. Isn’t it ironic?

Again, lotsa things happen. Gotta find courage and strength to go through it all. The wedding, the posting, the convo, clearing up rumah sewa kt vista. Heyy it’s not easy being a grown up tau. Now I know. Dulu time skola sibuk2 x saba bile nk keje. Now, rasalah. ahahaha

I got to be posted to Johor, but I don’t know which part yet.

The best thing is, I am supposed to report for duty on 3rd of August…ok, let me just state things that I have to do.

1) 18/7 &19/7 :this coming Sat n Sun ade job.

2)  20/7 monday Have to settle a few things regarding posting

3) at the same time I have to pack up my things kt rmh sewa, buang mane yg x ptt, kemas2, pack printer, meja study tu cemane lakk. (sape mau beli meja n krusi study, lelong saje. good quality for good price)

4)  21/7  Slase ade job jugak (final laa b4 I devote myself in teaching world)

5) lps tu stret blk mlk, tuka keta besa sket.

6) 25/7  Sat morning g KL, amik brg2, tuka keta sbb kalo nk stuff sume brg kt Kancil tu mmg x muat la kan.

7) 28/7 Sunday g jumpe Emy n Rahah, amik kain yg Emy beli kt Bandung for my engagement. Harusla kan g jumpe n amik, jao mari tuh. ahaha

8) lps tuh br blk mlk…

9) Siap2 personal things nk bwk ke JOhor…

10) 3rd August monday reporting for duty kt skola (which i dono which school yet)

11) 4th August Tuesday amik robe kt UM (how the hell nk g amik kann since d day b4 kt JOhor)

12) 8th August Sat ade raptai convo (still in school tp nsb baik ari sabtu)

13) 15th August dah convo (hopfuli blh terus pulang jubah)

aaaa pening2.

Sambil pk…bile plak aku nk g anta kain nk buat baju btunang ni…bile plak nk g amik.. nk anta kt sape since aku kt johor..haih…Erwan jela choice yg ade..huhuh…

Pack kan?

This is what grown ups do.

Bencii~~~

Byk bnde kene hadap, byk prob nk selesaikan.

So, if ade any insignificant people yg aku x sempat nk entertain tu, mahapla ye, my schedule is already packed!

Yang Kepenatan dan Kepeningan,

Nadiah Ibrahim.

Horrible…terrible…miserable…

•09/07/2009 • 6 Comments

Assalamualaikum n good day everyone.
I hope that u guys are having a blast i. Doing whatever u do.
Me?
I am not having any good days for several days.
Why?
I was dumbstrucked by something that really shocked. I feel very diasappointed, frustrated, betrayed, fooled.
Heartache.
Headache.
Got insomniac for several days.
U name it.
Why they dont listen to me this once?
Am i not important, significant at all? Childish? Immature? Not able 2 decide or plan for my life?
I am totally dissapppointed.
I dont care.
The so called ‘head of the clan’, so called respected elder, so called mister-know-it-all, so called aku-dah-mkn-garam-lagi-lama-dari-kau..
Screw ‘em all.
Till this matter is not done, if i died, i’ll die with dissapppoinments and regrets, above all.

R.O.J.A.K

•22/06/2009 • 16 Comments

rojak

(photo from : http://www.flickr.com/photos/avlxyz/2498428809/)

Assalamualaikum and good day readers! :D

First of all, this time, the entry has nothing to do with the photo above. LOL. I just borrow the photo and the term to describe what I feel right now. Too many things happened for the past week which affected me emotionally.

First, I was qualified to be one of the 9 lucky girls to be the finalist for Garnier search. Of all the 9 finalist, only 2 will be selected as winners and get 2 years sponsor of Garnier products, and a contract worth 10 grand a.k.a rm10,000 a.k.a 10K. Every finalist stand a chance to win the contract and they will be in Garnier TV ads. (http://www.tv3.com.my/garniersearch/gallery.asp?page=10#comment)

Secondly, Kak Nurul, who is my mentor and a good friend of mine, told me that a production wants me to be in a TV3 programme called Impian Anggun, together with Kak Nurul and other 5 girls. The payment is quite handsome, I mind you.

Thirdly, the saddest part. Due to some circumstances, I had to let both offers go…I know, it’s sad. Cuz it’s something that I really love doing. A thing that hinders me from stress. A thing that I had alot of fun meeting beautiful girls from different backgrounds. Money is not the issue..well, it is a bit, cuz I’m preparing for my big day, so an extra fund would be very extremely helpful. But, bak kata org, takde rezeki. I just said to myself, maybe there are greater gifts from God to me, He just wants me to wait. And the rezeki is not mine.

I also think that, maybe this is the time I should slowly fading out from the modeling world…it’s kinda frustrating you see, you already grabbed it in your hands, but suddenly it slipped out of your hands. So…I decide to rest myself from modeling…but if there are any suitable jobs, I’ll consider lah. I’m not totally leaving the world, but I’m just taking a break. Considering I’m still gambling with the fate, dont know where I will be posted, I think it’s better lah kot for letting the Garnier thingy go, cuz they have a contract. If I were to be posted far far away from KL, that would be another issue.

Hm…rojak ekk. rasa frust, but yet I’m hoping and praying for other better ‘offers’ God has already instored for me. And I’m really excited! :D

For those who follows me (xkn nk kate fan plak kan, aku bkn artis mahupun selebriti), from now onwards, I’ll just gonna be a plain human being, a soon-to-be teacher, who already HAD  her good time doing some stuff, so that it is very sweet to be remembered and a story to tell to her grandchildren. hahaha

Sekian.

Nadiah Ibrahim

- a former model cap ayam -

lol~